If you were my crush

Around 3rd week of March 2008          a typical evening

 

Start!

 

To the person I like:

 

 

Maybe you don’t know or you will never know. There’s something in your eyes that is perplexing. Yes, it is wonderful to look into them, but I dare not for I am afraid that I may not be able to hold your gaze. And that will make the situation worse. 

Actually, I am happy that you do not know. For in that way, I can like and unlike (naghimo2 jud ug term =D) you anytime I want. And that’s the beauty of liking someone. You don’t have to think of what they’re thinking about you. 

Well, I guess that I have to say goodbye for now. I’m confident that I will be able to forget you sooner or later (xur?). Though I know that it won’t be easy.

 But it’s not the end of my suffering. I know that in a few months, I will meet a new set of “persons to like”. Hahay, kasamok ba aning mga hormones wui. Nganong kinahanglan pa man ta ma-crush ha? Pwede bang wala na lang. Because so far I cannot see its importance in my life. Murag nagsamok2x lang. Feeling nako sala man japun nako. Why did I allow it to affect my life? Siguro dili pa nako ma-appreciate ang iyang importance karon. Kanus-a pa man diay?
 

(Patience is the answer!)